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Friday, July 17, 2020

update from 8 weeks later in quarantine limbo

On Sunday, May 17th, I developed a fever. Nothing really bad but it was higher than normal. Also, I was told that someone I was in contact with, tested positive for COVID 19. I knew in my gut that I was going to test positive as well. And on May 19th I tested positive. My symptoms were Fever, headache, weakness, dry cough, heaviness in the lungs, then lack of smell and taste. After 8 days, my cough got much worse, and so did my difficulty managing my mucus. I went back to the doctor nearing the end of 14 days and was told that I had a mild case of pneumonia and was given a dose of z-pac.

Then I took another test and was positive again. I took zinc, vitamin d12, and lots of hot tea, (peppermint, and green tea) I started sweating thru my shirts, twice a day. (once in the day and the other in the night) I took Tylenol daily to keep the fever down. And around the 18th day, my fever went back to normal, but the other symptoms were still with me and I started seeing things, fast-moving grey shadows around my feet which I thought were cats. It's a good thing I have two cats or I would have thought I was going crazy.

 Then I tested positive for a third time which left my doctor bewildered and she said that she would talk to the CDC to see what else they can do. (which didn't happen) She did give me a prescription for antibiotics. Also, during this time I had contact with the state health department but they didn't stay in contact with me for very long (4 days) and then UAMS contacted me and then stopped as well.

You'd think that there would be some communication with each other during this whole ordeal but nope! Every time I tested positive I had to go thru the same hoops as the beginning.
I still felt weak, and still had a problem with coughing and mucus even after my second round of antibiotics, then I took Mucinex which didn't do anything for me.

I tested positive for a 4th time! But around the end of the first week, my cough started to let up, and then the mucus did as well, but I still felt like I was wearing a weight vest on me. Even though I lost about 30 lbs, I didn't really get winded though. I just felt very weak.

I am telling you all these things to show you this is no joke! Wear your stupid mask!
Once thought that was a constant in my mind while this was going on was either I get better or I am going to die. I was terrified for so long! I was stuck in my house for 8 weeks!

And COVID did something weird to my brain for a bit there. I couldn't write anything and drawing was difficult because my hands shook, so I could do any kind of fine detail. Just recently, I started coming up with writing ideas my hand stopped shaking which were a relief because I was beginning to think that COVID took my writing away.

Are you listening to me?! I am telling you now. This was worse than anything I have ever been through. I would have to sometimes use a pillow and press it against my chest to help with coughing, or basically wrap a towel around my chest very tight like a corset to help with the pain of coughing. I would cough so hard I'd lose my breath and my eyes would go black.

I thankful for all the prayers during all this, because I really didn't know what to do. I was the only person that I knew that tested positive 4 times. And being stuck at home for that long, kind of messed with my head. It still does.
But I have been released from quarantine and I am going back to work soon.
So my message to you is, wash your stupid hands, keep your mask on over your nose and mouth in public! Stop being a stupid crybaby, complaining about how you can't breathe! Well, once you get this, and you will! If you don't follow protocol! you'll know first hand about not being able to breathe!

Tuesday, May 19, 2020

Update 5/19/20


I started feeling a little peculiar Sunday evening. Also, I was told by someone that I have been in contact with was positive for COVID, so my work told me to go get checked out. I had the swab test done and this morning they said, I tested positive for the virus. I have had a low-grade temp, cough, headache, and a dash of sneezing so far.

I am now legitimately quarantined now will be so for the next 14 days.

There are a lot of unknowns here at the moment. My dr. said the majority of positive cases lately have been not very bad. Let's hope that mine is within that category.

I will try and update any who reads this blog still on my progress. Prayers and thoughts and positivity are all very welcome.

And please be safe, and keep doing what you are doing.


Sunday, February 23, 2020

50 things that make me laugh

50 things that make me laugh

1. Faulty Gas pumps

2. Hang gliding mishaps
3. Matadors getting their comeuppance 
4. Dom Deluise’s laugh
5. Movie bloopers 
6. Depressing talks that end awkwardly
7. People getting slapped
8. Drivers with road rage 
9. The word “swamp” 
10. Slave bracelets 
11. People talking to their exes on the phone
12. The word “eyeball” 
13. Repeating a word until it has no more meaning
14. Butts
15. People “ugly crying” 
16. Drunk people getting badly injured 
17. Bull riders getting badly injured 
18. Flat earthers 
19. Antivaxers
20. People who drive giant trucks 
21. Hair plugs
22. Hair extensions 
23. 40-year-old adolescents 
24. Shoplifters crying
25. Overhearing weird conversations in grocery stores
26. Late-night clothing styles 
27. The word “hamburger” 
28. Cowboy boots
29. Contemporary country music
30. Giant rims on surplus, ex-police cars
31. The car sticker “salt life”
32. “In memory of” car stickers 
33. Intestinal parasites that egress during a bowel movement
34. Chicken soup books
35. Dull scissors 
36. Toenail clippings on public bathroom floors 
37. A thin layer of bubbling, burnt, coffee tar left in the pot. 
38. Skidmarks on toilet seats 
39. Men’s room grunts 
40. Nicotine stained fingernails
41. Flipflops in January 
42. Black ice 
43. Stranded cars on the side of the road
44. Kids leaning back to fast and hitting their heads on church pews 
45. Kids crying so hard their parents are shaking them, telling them to “breath” 
46. Children falling off things
47. Incontinence 
48. Two-week-old chili bowls
49. People eating potato chips 
50. 90's cowboy fashion

My solsburry

I woke up with the song Solsburry hill in my head, this rather nice morning. It, being the weather, not the morning. I had the song still with me.
I really like the song, but I didn’t know that I liked it that much.
I heard that the song gives sort of a reason why Gabriel left the group, Genesis. And then after reading the lyrics to the song, It made me feel strange. The song is about change, and about fear of what others will think once they see what you have changed into. With lyrics like “To keep in silence I resigned.” And “I will show another me.” Or “ I walked right of the machinery.” It made me feel as if I was hitting upon something big inside me. Something that I had been ignoring for some time. I couldn’t exactly remember all the lyrics, so when I got to work this morning I looked them up.
What I came up with, was something like the pain of going forward. And the things you tend to leave behind. The people the places. The memories. Will they understand what it is that you are doing? Will they see the path ahead of you? Will they understand?
No. No they won’t understand.
They will think you are crazy. They will say that you have gone weird on them. Your friends that you thought were your closest, will turn on you. It’s moments like these that will define you. They will show you who your true friends are and who will understand your choices. Then you can keep going forward and never look back.

Sunday, February 2, 2020

Animal Noir review

Animal Noir TP

If you have not read this book or even heard of it, or you might not think it would be your cup of proverbial tea, do not be deterred by the cartoonesque art style and the anthropomorphic animals!  This is a very gritty and brutal crime drama.
It is very easy to be seduced by a book that is touted as a cross between “Chinatown” and “Animal Farm”

It all starts with a film. Not just a normal film, but in Prey industry, they call "Hunt Porn"
Local Serengeti City Private Investigator, who's also giraffe and answers to the name Immanuel Diamond, but he’s “Manny” to his buddies. He gets a job from his uncle Theo, a powerful local Judge to find a certain film that contains some sensitive material, that being his wife in pretend scenario where she is acting like she’s being eaten by a predator. Theo paid to make the whole mess go away, but like most secrets, they always come up for air eventually.

This chain-smoking crass giraffe glides thru the slums and gutters of the depraved as well as the palaces of the rich hippo crime bosses trying to track down the film that his uncle is obsessed with finding but things prove to be a way simpler and at the same time complicated to his case.

Izar Lunacek pulls double duty on this book, as a co-writer (with Nejc Juren) and the artist too. His art is a bit of an acquired taste, but once you get used to it, it’s actually pretty interesting, the way he portrays scale of emotion: the seething intensity of hatred and anger, to joy and sadness. This book is morally loose, (like our world) but also shows you a lens into which you see the world around you, a world fraught with racism, classism, and hypocrisy, but since this world is populated by talking animals, the message is easier to sneak past your defenses and go straight for the throat at times you would least expect it. The Slovenian writer/artist who got his start in a local newspaper should be someone to keep an eye out for in the future.

Dense and unapologetic, Animal Noir is devious, very allegorical, scandalous and really creeps into the back of your mind for hours later. It seeps into it with ease, like water into a sponge and saturates your brain. Do yourself a favor and get this one.

What I have been up to.

I have been thinking about using this more as a review of things that I am into lately and a link dump by which I show you what I am listening to or ran across on the web.

I don't feel as though posting this stuff on Facebook will get looked at so posting it here will guarantee that it will never ever be seen. BWAHAHA.


Been getting into this band called Haircuts for men lately. I bought two of their albums already and will probably purchase more in the future as well.

Also, I have been revisiting my noise, jazz core, thrashcore, roots as of late. I discovered this band from Japan called Otoboke Beaver. And they are all that is awesome!

I have been writing, drawing or creating stuff since the beginning of this year and it feels pretty good if I do say so myself. My desk is covered in greebles, plastic dust, and notebooks. How are you?

Wednesday, September 25, 2019

Parker: The score review

Richard Stark’s Parker: The Score

In Darwyn Cooke’s third masterful adaptation of Richard Stark’s Parker series, we find Parker being enticed into doing a job so crazy, that he can’t say no to. Knocking over the entire mining town of Copper Canyon, in one night. He’s told of the job and how many men would be involved which causes him to scoff at the very idea at first, but rolling it around in his mind causes him to actually say yes to this impossible feat that seemed like a plot to a movie that would never work in real life.

Twelve men crazy enough to help Parker take on this monumental job and keep their wits about them while hiding from the law, yeah, it’s crazy. And you’re glued to this book for the entire time.

Never once do you feel like you’re not in the same room as Parker and his crew. Cooke keeps it close and intimate.

The 13 Eisner Award winner’s art mirrors Parker’s own personality in some ways, he doesn’t say much and when he does, he lets the man’s actions speak for him.

The character of Parker is one that Hollywood just can’t seem to leave alone, Stark’s master thief has been played by many actors over the years, Lee Marvin, Michel Constantin, Jim Brown, Robert Duvall, Peter Coyote, Mel Gibson, and Jason Statham.
But who could blame him? He’s a very complex but simple character that you can’t help but cheer on and hope that he makes it.

All these actors played Parker in spirit but would never allow Parker's name to be used. (until Jason Statham in Parker). Apparently Donald Westlake, (the real name of Richard Stark) was so swayed by Cooke’s adaptation that he gave him his blessing to use the moniker “Parker”.  He went on to adapt the first four books in the series, The Hunter, The Outfit, The Score, and Slayground

 “Strip it all down to essentials and draw the hell out of what’s let.” Alex Toth once said.
And Darwin Cooke’s followed that with an almost monastic Focus. His characters are simple yet elegant, you almost tend to forget how brilliant his artwork is because of the simplicity of it, he knows where to put lines, and curves. Everything is exact and nothing ever seems out of place for one moment.

He knows how to channel his art in that Toth-esque minimalist style in a way that no one has ever tried before. He has a way of delving straight into that vein that Toth started long ago in the ’60s.

And that's what makes this artwork so beautiful and so timeless when you look at it, you don't see art, you see the past, you see exactly what he wants you to see.

Parker is the proto character that other popular writers modeled their protagonists after, he‘s close to Lee Child’s Jack Reacher, in that he’s this big animalistic brute that doesn’t say much. Parker is an unrepentant, thuggish, bastard and yet you can’t help but love him. And just like Stark, you’ll end up liking him for what he won’t tell you about himself.